I'm fine. Not.

 "Ich glaube daran dass alles was passiert seinen Grund hat, dass manche Menschen sich  verändern, damit du lernst jemanden gehen zu lassen, dass dinge falsch laufen, so dass du  die Richtigen zu schätzen weißt. Dass du den Lügen glaubst um daraus zu schließen, dass   du nicht   jedem Vertrauen kannst. Und manchmal gute Dinge einfach vorbei gehen müssen, damit Bessere folgen können."  - Marilyn Monroe  sometimes you need to step outside, get some air, and remind   yourself of who you are and who you wanted to be. 'is that all killing   you you like it's killing  me? if it's worth the risk, then take the fall.''

i want love right now, a kiss, a cuddle, a butterfly in my stomach, or maybe thousands, i want love, i  want a hand to hold, i want  a bed to sleep in, i want a back to rub, i want strands of hair to play  with. i want a camera to take photos with. i want a chair so you can sit on my lap. i  want a t.v. so we can watch scary movies and cuddle, i want a wardrobe so than i can  dress you up in my               clothes, i want a doona we can be  warm. i want teeth so i can bite your lip, i want eyes, so i can  stare into yours, i want a cellphone, so i can text you when  you're right text to me  saying i love you, i want a mouth so we can laugh at silly and stupid    things, i want a floor so you can push me off the bed, i want your nose, so i can kiss it. - i   want you.    if your life ended right now, could you honestly say that  you lived in the way you wanted? life is a bitch.  death is her sister. sleep is a cousin what a fucking family.        

 if someone wants to be a part of your life, they'll be there. so don't bother saving a spot for someone who won't make an effort.- because maybe you're gonna be the one that saves me or?  it is in these moments of tender and ridiculous nostalgia that i know something inside me is   still broken.when you're dreaming with a broken hear the waking up is the hardest part. '' i'm sorry i constantly want to talk to you.i'm sorry when you take long to reply, i get sad. i'm sorry if i say things that might piss you you off. i'm sorry if i come off as annoying. i'm sorry if you don't wanna talk to me as much as i wanna talk to you. i'm sorry if i think about you too much and too often. i'm sorry if i tell you about my pointless drama when you don't really care. i'm sorry if i come off as being clingly, but it's just me missing you. {{being replaced is the absolute worst feeling in the world. one moment you think you mean the world to someone, and then before you know it, you're all alone.so i try to find the the words that i could say. i know the distance doesn't matter, but you feel so far away it hurts but i never show the pain you'll never know.